Tonight I realized that I now don’t have any friends in this fucking town. All the people I knew just strayed away from me and I don’t know why. I just got back from hanging out with some of these “friends” and they just talked with each other the whole time while I was just sitting quietly. I feel that I am forgotten or I don’t even exist to everyone. I know they do things without me because when they get together and I am around they said “oh remember last night or hey last week was sick” or something like that. I was really sad that I come to realize this because I don’t know why. Is it me? Or them? I want to tell them what I feel and all but I don’t want to. One of them asked me as he was driving me home why I was distant with them. I really thought about saying the truth, I wanted to so badly and all I said was ehh. I feel when they don’t have anything to do they call me and ask to hangout that is the only time they want me to hangout. I get pissed and sad when I see they upload pictures or post on Facebook on who they hanged out with and what they did. So at this point I want to isolate myself away from everybody. When the time comes I will most likely move, either to a different city or state. I think it will be good for me, a start of a new life everything new. I seriously feel sadden of what I see from my so called friends.

But hey. I’ve always been somewhat alone most of my life, it is nothing new…